Happy New Year

On this last day of 2020 it’s easy to see the global and personal problems we’ve been facing. They can’t be ignored and 2020 was definitely a year of new struggles that left us really unsure about the future. Things are very different this Holiday season and I think it’s safe to say that a year and a half ago no one would’ve thought it would become normal and necessary to wear a mask in public.

I’m not sure about you, but the New Year wishes I’ve been hearing around me pretty much all include mutually wishing for a much better upcoming year. I too wish everyone a better year, with health, safety, comfort, love and happiness. My tradition however at the end of every year is to look back and think of what I’m grateful for, despite the bad. I am fortunate because while this year was indeed messed up, it was still fruitful.

My Farewell and Thank You to 2020

I am grateful for this year because some of the changes it brought were lifesaving. Thank you so much that I am still here after trying to commit suicide, and am trying to move forwards with my life. Thank you for the moment when I decided to live, and for the strength to publish my journal which brought me to this project that fills my heart with purpose. I am grateful for successfully completing another semester of college, deciding to become a psychologist and for being able to return to work with such kind coworkers. Thank you so much also for this past summer in which I began to make unprecedented progress that allowed me to get to where I am now. I am grateful for my entire support team and all the professionals who have and are helping me with compassion and understanding. Most of all, thank you so incredibly much for my loving and supportive family. I love you all so so much! And Mia, we came into each others lives right when we needed it most. The moment you scuttled over to me on the road when I called you…I knew that was a miracle. You are my miracle puppy and having you as my little ‘baby’ to take care of has brought me so much joy, love and happiness! You too have brought me purpose and a will to keep going despite what comes because I can’t possibly leave my fluffy princess who needs me!

I send loving, appreciative energy along with the hope that 2021 will bring stability and solutions to our lives. My heart is with everyone who has faced things that made 2020 a painful and challenging year. If this New Year finds you sad, mourning or anything else…I am with you in spirit if it’s any small comfort. I pray for a world that does not experience such horrible pain in so many ways and I pray for new, positive beginnings!

The beautiful emotions in life are too strong to be broken by distance, and I encourage everyone, myself included, to stay strong and feel them fully despite the turbulence.